Needing a little help from my friends...

Ok so I have to admit that I'm at a bit of a low point when it comes to my job. Things are rough right now. I have one child in particular who is extremely challenging and the parent is needless to say, not helping the cause. I think I'm at a low point because I realize the challenge of what I do. The teaching is a challenge...yes...but the "type" and I hate to use that word, but the culture of children I teach are challenging. I can see so many of them are missing things in their lives. I can see the frustration that is coming out in other ways (behavior) because of situations going on at home. It's all just a little much right now. Everyone I have talked to has said, "It'll be ok, Spring Break starts Friday and you need a break." Well here's the thing, the problems I am experiencing will still be there when I come back. Like I said, I don't want to go into to many specifics but lets just say that a classroom full of bahavioral problems + unsupportive parents = a great big headache. I DON'T wan to feel this way. Literally every morning I pray the entire way to work that I will experience happiness at my job today. I have to say that God does provide, because there are moments of happiness. However, my problem is all of the difficult and frustrating situations are overpowering my happiness. I used to love my job! I want to love it again!

Well, anyway...right now as I mentioned in a post before, I am reading the book Becoming More Than a Good Bible Study Girl by Lysa TerKeurst. I just got done reading a chapter where she compares our life's struggles with the battle between David and Goliath. She said, "He (David) didn't wonder or resist why God had put him in this most unlikely place for an anointed king. He didn't let his mind be carried off by doubt and insecurity. He just accepted that God had led him where he was supposed to be--the right place for right now." I find comfort in that statment right there. Doubt and insecurity are two feelings I feel right about now. I doubt myself as being an effective teacher for these children, and I am insecure about my doubts. It's like a vicious circle.

So for all of my friends out there in "blog land" please send up a prayer for me. I need to find the happiness in my job, and the will to keep going. I know my teacher friends understand. Our job has perks because of the time off...but jeesh without that time off I wonder what we would all be like.....CRAZY!

Thanks for listening,

Katie